I am emerging from the most severe flare-up I’ve ever experienced, and unfortunately, it occurred during the holiday vacation. Initially, it began with muscle aches and knots, followed by a peculiar red mark on my right hand that resembled a burn but didn’t feel like one. When I tried to push through the pain to visit my folks for the holidays, nausea struck, persisting for three consecutive days. I couldn’t keep anything down, not even clear fluids. It became evident that I had caught a virus, exacerbating my fibromyalgia and the flu.
Thankfully, I’m past the worst phase now, although I’m still grappling with my asthma. I’m gradually able to keep liquids down and have been replenishing with Gatorade to regain strength. I’m diligent about taking my medications, uncertain if they’re being absorbed effectively.
Surprisingly, I find myself relieved to be at a 9/10 on the pain scale. Previously, I couldn’t use my massage cushion because I couldn’t tolerate touch, but tonight, despite battling a migraine, the massage cushion is providing some relief for my back and the knot between my ribcage.
My mother witnessed the onset of the flare-up and is struggling to accept that there’s little that can be done except weathering this storm and growing stronger once again. I must confess, I had a meltdown during the worst spike and cried uncontrollably.
It’s frustrating how people continue going to work, shopping, or carrying on despite being sick. I don’t blame most individuals in these situations because not going to work isn’t always an option, especially when companies prioritize attendance over health.
I take precautions, but nothing is foolproof, especially when you have kids!
I wish everyone a wonderful holiday season, and to those who are struggling, I’m sending you all my love and understanding.
The pain is real! 
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